Many of my visits to Oregon have been strange, especially when Andrew has been involved. Logging protest lockdowns; death march hikes through the wilderness; helping stupid kids survive near death rock climbing foolishness; learning to surf.

In a way, none has been as strange as this visit -- hanging out doing our best to not talk about cancer; tagging along as a distraction to his doctor visits and chemotherapy sessions; wondering if this time saying good bye isn't a more long-term statement.

crap. this sucks.

But, I can't wait to be home.

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